So the other day someone called me excessively in denial of being mentally unbalanced because they learned I see and hear things most people do not. Considering I’ve been told by counselors to psychiatrists I have a very healthy mental state and attitude (with a problem with authority…odd considering what I do), I seriously doubt this is the case. Oh, there are more reasons as to why, and I’m going to get into that.
How this all started was someone asked if they were going insane because he kept hearing voices. The reporting person said they were hearing what sounded like a conversation between two people and he’d get a little freaked out, ask a question or make a comment, and he’d get replies, more or less. This had never happened to him before and so he’s a little scared. The voices aren’t an every day thing, and he routinely hears the same things. One such statement he randomly hears is “Yes it does” while he’s typing and the one which happens the most is “Follow the circle.”
Right away people were telling him the first sign of a mental illness is hearing voices and to seek medical help as soon as possible. Normally this would be sage advice, except it sounds more like something above the ordinary rather than a mental disease. Some people were saying if there is no harm coming of it, such as being told what to do, then just let it be and it should go away. For me, that is the most sage advise.
So, with everyone else putting in their opinions, I dropped in how when I hear voices, I’ll often (attempt) to interview them, but I see and hear things most people don’t. I even expanded on the possibility of his brain is simply doing what is known as “matrixing” from random white noise going on around him. In other words, there’s some noise going on around him which his brain doesn’t understand, so it’s trying to make sense of it by forming voices. This is not unlike when you look up at the clouds and think, “Hey, that cloud looks like an elephant!”
What happens? Bam, my statement is “evidence” that I’m mentally unbalanced because I deny that I am. Isn’t that what we call “Damned if you do, damed if you don’t!”? It’s a fucking trial by ordeal with these people. I’m in denial for saying I don’t have a mental disability, but by saying I have a mental disability, I deny what I see and am unbalanced, which is not the case either way.
There’s a difference between what I experience and a hallucination. So, of course I explain how I’ve had everyone from “psychics” (and I use the term VERY loosely) and regular people have told me they say a something when I was witnessing an event. I further explained how if you don’t see and hear the things I do, I’m not surprised if someone would call me a liar or unbalanced.
I’ve had optometrists tell me my eyes are “different”. My last exam, which was in July 2008, resulted in the same thing. My eye doctor said, “I don’t think I’ve seen eyes like the back of yours.” My mother, father, brother, and other family members have all witnessed these somethings in the past at the same time. Now, let me not forget to mention people all over the world experience similar things all the time.
What did this result in? I was told my family probably has a “genetic disposition for getting crossed signals due to a problem with our optical sensory perception.” Does that make anyone else a little pissed and sick to their stomachs? So many people talk about how they believe in evolution and change with humans, but the moment something might be part of that change it’s hated on, discredited, and even made to seem less than human.
I don’t go around talking to myself, seeing “ghosties” floating around the world all the time. Usually when I hear something, I listen for a while and find the source. Eight times out of ten something can be easily explained, and I find the reason behind it. It’s those two times that will blow your mind and you must label it paranormal, as we don’t currently have the science to explain it.
I have experienced hallucinations induced from a concussion and from lack of sleep before. Because I see and hear these things, I know the difference rather well. When I stayed up for 75 hours straight I would often see shadowy figures moving about, just out of dead center vision, or crawling about the floor quickly. When I had a bad concussion I would hear music, ringing, and voices. When I’m engulfed in electromagnetic fields I think something is around me, chatter, and see strange shapes moving. Guess what? I know what causes these and what they were, so I’d never label them paranormal.
Let me help you understand how I understand the difference. I’ll be using video games because they’re an easy source of screen shots and comparisons. Now, imagine if you will, when people turn on their video game consoles, they always only see this:
The previous picture is considered normal and common. This is what everyone expects to happen when you turn on the video game console.
When you tell people about it, because they only see the first one image, they tell you what you’re seeing isn’t what you’re saying, and it’s a problem with you. What they claim you are seeing is this:
The previous picture is a serious problem with the video game console, and your TV, which means you should get help immediately. However, you know you aren’t seeing the previous picture, because when you had a problem with your video game console or your TV, you saw this:
Because you know the difference, you know when someone has switched your video game console out.
I know this is all kind of a lame example, but it’s the best I could come up with showing a comparison. Another way to compare it, without images, is saying when you look out your window, there is a rose bush. The roses on the rose bush are red. Every so often you catch a glimpse of a yellow and red mixed one. You are told you are seeing things, because it’s a red rose bush, and the light is reflecting off of the yellow rose bush across the street when the wind blows. You know what a yellow rose bush and a red rose bush looks like, so you know when you see a mixed rose of yellow and red, but no other people have never seen it.
Just because someone can see or hear things you cannot, does not make them crazy or mentally unbalanced. There are people out there who are wired differently than normal, but that only means they have a skill/ability most do not. Using some of the models presented to me, Einstein should be considered crazy for thinking of the scientific theories he did or Michael Phelps shouldn’t be a real person for setting the world record he did, because the body isn’t supposed to do the things these two people did.
When I walk into a building and tell the person I’m with I don’t like a certain area, they often ask my why. An example would be a bordered up building. I told the person I was with I didn’t like the rear of the building and when I looked in the front window, I got the “bulk” of the feeling over in a specific area. The person of course asked me where exactly and why. I told the person, “It’s right before the kitchen. There used to be tables there or something, I think, and I get this faded image of a person over it. Like they had hung themselves.” I was asked what the person looked like, so I told them. I ws then asked how long I lived in the town and I told them I had only been there a month. Not too amazingly I was told an old bartender had hung himself over the pool tables in that area and looked as I described. The place had been closed three years before I arrived and I knew nothing about it, as I had only even passed by the town once when I moved into the state two years ago.
The brain is still a mysterious thing to doctors. If you don’t understand something, don’t chastise it right away. It’s because of people like those who called me unbalanced we have things like the Witch Trials and the like, not the other way around.
Posted 7/30/2008 at 2:12 AM on Xanga